The heart is an interesting thing. And I can honestly say, it has been ages since I have felt this way. Since that time where day after day all you did was hurt me. I felt so completely low that I just wanted to tear away at myself. Some thing's never go away.

Which is exactly my fucking point. My heart hurts and I am doing this to myself only because I love you so much. I cry when we have to part. I cry when I hear those songs. I cry when I think about all those memories I know we will never have again. I cry when I think of how much has changed. I cry when I realize how much I love you. And how much you love me.

And I cry right now because I know in my heart that I am not enough for you. You would never do these things. You would never risk this. You would never hurt me this way. You would never be stupid. And you would never understand.

I want to think that you can always help me with everything my love, but this time you can't.

And. I. cannot. hurt. you.

How can I do this? I think about everything I have ever wanted in life and I feel as though I am not living it all. I feel as though this is not my life.

I haven't hurt this much in ages. And this is the place I decide to come to.

The past's words...~The futures thoughts...

These rings...
The undieing cliques...